Grip it right!
Posted: Mon Nov 16, 2009 3:26 pm
Or how an adrenaline surge affected the sensibility of my shooting hand during the development of a local match.
LOCAL LEAGUE. There’s this local SP match contest where scores are the sum of the two best matches of three shot during the yearly league. I shot none of those matches but the last one so I had virtually zero pressure since I had nothing to win or lose. My sole reason for attending that match yesterday was to have some fun with the buddies at the range.
STEEL NERVES. I felt really calm before the match, I felt really calm when it came to lay my stuff on my allocated shooting lane, I felt really calm when the order to load our magazines came, I felt really calm when I first raised my pistol, but I felt this surge of adrenaline flowing down my arteries and my heart starting to pound faster as soon as I started squeezing the trigger.
I’M NOT JERKING THE TRIGGER. I became very conscious of my agitated stimulation level and the accelerated rhythm of my heart—I needed an answer of what was happening to me and I needed it immediately: Why can’t I just squeeze the trigger like I do when I’m training? Why is the front sight wandering off the aiming area as soon as I start pulling the trigger? Why is the end product of my shots and ever increasing number of eights, sevens, even fives and fours? Why I feel like I cannot grip my pistol comfortably today? What am I doing wrong? Why the hour it takes to finish an SP match seems so slow to come to an end when things don’t go as expected?
THE LAST SHOT WAS NO BETTER THAN THE FIRST ONE. If anything, it seemed like I had enough time to travel around the world on a 10-second series. But why can’t I grip this pistol right today? Why am I feeling uncomfortable in my shooting stance? Do I really feel uncomfortable in my usual shooting stance? Do I trust what my sensory system is reporting back to my brain? Why can I overhear conversations held in a whisper a few lanes down the range while I’m wearing my hearing protection?
ANALYSIS. Later that day, I proceeded to the usual checking of the unloaded status of my Standard Pistol before placing it in storage when I told myself I should do some dry firing against a reduced target hanging on the wall—I was totally convinced I’d be releasing the trigger just fine after several hours had passed since that match. But it seems like we need to learn something new every day and today wasn’t going to be any different. I’m placing myself in my comfortable shooting stance, I’m gripping my pistol, I’m checking my grip with the sensory spots in my hand, everything seems right: up we go, we’re wandering on the aiming area, I’m squeezing the trigger, the front sight goes left, then up, then right, then low and left, the shot has been released and the sights are perfectly aligned now. What? Why did that front sight move so much? In hindsight, I know now that the same front sight wandering happened during the match.
ADRENALINE RUSHES AFFECT HUMAN SENSES. I soon realized that I was literally opening my hand —3rd, 4th, and 5th fingers—every time my trigger finger was going to release the trigger. I guess I’ll never know why I did that but it cost me a match. My theory is that I was relying on the sensitivity of my hand to report back to my brain whether my fingers where doing their work like I wanted to. Then, for some reason I got this adrenaline rush which may have desensitized somewhat the perceived feeling of my shooting hand. Now, I’m training at home placing all my attention on the proper gripping technique. I feel like I’m gripping too hard but I believe this is all sensory stuff so I’m not placing much attention on that sort of feedback. For now, all I want is my fingers applying pressure on the right spots and this pressure being maintained during the release of a shot—for every shot.
AFTERMATH. But why did I have an adrenaline rush on this local match where I was going to win or lose exactly nothing? What am I afraid of?
SIDE NOTE. Maybe someone wants to know what the actual score for that match was. It was a humbling 502 points. I scored 534 a few days ago in a training match and the expected score for any Standard Pistol match was between 520 and 538 points—peaks and lows aside.
LOCAL LEAGUE. There’s this local SP match contest where scores are the sum of the two best matches of three shot during the yearly league. I shot none of those matches but the last one so I had virtually zero pressure since I had nothing to win or lose. My sole reason for attending that match yesterday was to have some fun with the buddies at the range.
STEEL NERVES. I felt really calm before the match, I felt really calm when it came to lay my stuff on my allocated shooting lane, I felt really calm when the order to load our magazines came, I felt really calm when I first raised my pistol, but I felt this surge of adrenaline flowing down my arteries and my heart starting to pound faster as soon as I started squeezing the trigger.
I’M NOT JERKING THE TRIGGER. I became very conscious of my agitated stimulation level and the accelerated rhythm of my heart—I needed an answer of what was happening to me and I needed it immediately: Why can’t I just squeeze the trigger like I do when I’m training? Why is the front sight wandering off the aiming area as soon as I start pulling the trigger? Why is the end product of my shots and ever increasing number of eights, sevens, even fives and fours? Why I feel like I cannot grip my pistol comfortably today? What am I doing wrong? Why the hour it takes to finish an SP match seems so slow to come to an end when things don’t go as expected?
THE LAST SHOT WAS NO BETTER THAN THE FIRST ONE. If anything, it seemed like I had enough time to travel around the world on a 10-second series. But why can’t I grip this pistol right today? Why am I feeling uncomfortable in my shooting stance? Do I really feel uncomfortable in my usual shooting stance? Do I trust what my sensory system is reporting back to my brain? Why can I overhear conversations held in a whisper a few lanes down the range while I’m wearing my hearing protection?
ANALYSIS. Later that day, I proceeded to the usual checking of the unloaded status of my Standard Pistol before placing it in storage when I told myself I should do some dry firing against a reduced target hanging on the wall—I was totally convinced I’d be releasing the trigger just fine after several hours had passed since that match. But it seems like we need to learn something new every day and today wasn’t going to be any different. I’m placing myself in my comfortable shooting stance, I’m gripping my pistol, I’m checking my grip with the sensory spots in my hand, everything seems right: up we go, we’re wandering on the aiming area, I’m squeezing the trigger, the front sight goes left, then up, then right, then low and left, the shot has been released and the sights are perfectly aligned now. What? Why did that front sight move so much? In hindsight, I know now that the same front sight wandering happened during the match.
ADRENALINE RUSHES AFFECT HUMAN SENSES. I soon realized that I was literally opening my hand —3rd, 4th, and 5th fingers—every time my trigger finger was going to release the trigger. I guess I’ll never know why I did that but it cost me a match. My theory is that I was relying on the sensitivity of my hand to report back to my brain whether my fingers where doing their work like I wanted to. Then, for some reason I got this adrenaline rush which may have desensitized somewhat the perceived feeling of my shooting hand. Now, I’m training at home placing all my attention on the proper gripping technique. I feel like I’m gripping too hard but I believe this is all sensory stuff so I’m not placing much attention on that sort of feedback. For now, all I want is my fingers applying pressure on the right spots and this pressure being maintained during the release of a shot—for every shot.
AFTERMATH. But why did I have an adrenaline rush on this local match where I was going to win or lose exactly nothing? What am I afraid of?
SIDE NOTE. Maybe someone wants to know what the actual score for that match was. It was a humbling 502 points. I scored 534 a few days ago in a training match and the expected score for any Standard Pistol match was between 520 and 538 points—peaks and lows aside.